My Call

May 2, 2015:

Do you hear it?

Sometimes in the dead of the night, my heart cracks and I call out your name.

It is a raw, vulnerable, pure call. It is one of the most honest things I utter. It is broken and honest and is full of longing for a time, a place and a person I no longer have a claim on.

It is one of those moment, I feel closer to reality more than ever… and I think, that if the universe ever feels remorse for me, that must be the time when it happens.

So I think my call must reach to you, it must jolt your soul a little bit.

Does it?

Do you hear it?

Choices…

April 30, 2015:

I had other choices. I could’ve gone a hundred other ways to a hundred different places with a choice of different people… but somehow, I always chose you.

I chose you when it was wrong to do so. I did it selfishly, I did it at the cost of others and my own happiness and I did it again and again and again.

I chose you when it was not wise to do so, I did it against all sane advice – and I keep doing it.

Every day I go out of way, everyday I let someone else go, everyday I lose a little more of myself – but I still choose you. Everyday my patience wears thin, everyday I lose a little more hope. Everyday people walk out of my life. Everyday I grow more restless and bitter – and everyday, sure as sunrise, I keep choosing you…